Tuesday, October 27, 2009

before the rain started

This last weekend, I was able to take a few photos.
We'd gone to our beach place
I get to relax there
The sun was out
One last time I'm thinking
Before the Rain started
Here is what I was seeing

Wednesday, October 21, 2009

i said no

yesterday was a bad day for me
i wrote about it on my other blog
today is better but i still have a massive ache
in my head and in my soul
i will never be the same again
that day that i almost died
they brought me back
not the same
i remember someone asking me
and i said no
i had to go back
i had cats to feed
another person who had been
in a coma
told someone the same thing
that they were asked
and she said no
and she came back
and she is brave
i am most days
but yesterday was bad
and today
i wish it were sunny
i do better when it's not wet
just wanted to say that

Monday, October 19, 2009

In The Clouds

And as we wonder
Through this thing
 Called life
I think it helps to have a bit
Of sunshine
Cause the
In the clouds
It's not working
For me

Saturday, October 17, 2009

One of those days ...

There are times
When I don't get it
The meaning
The lesson to learn

Why things happen
What is the struggle for

Today is one of those days
Where you wonder

I will continue on
I always do
It's just that I'm
Getting way to old
For this

In my life
I've had to give up
A lot
Let go of
A lot

Just let it be
Never mind
That didn't just happen

Only today
I think about
What could have been
What could be

I'm old
Today is not
What I thought it
Could be

I don't really
Want answers

I just want
Peace ...

Tuesday, October 13, 2009

look what it's brought me

This week I heard bad news about my beloved dog, Bella
We have no choice. She needs surgery. It's going to cost a lot.
She had surgery two years ago for a tumor.
She was a trooper. Recovered and kept on going.
Now, only a few years later, she needs another one.
Her xrays were terrible. She's a mess inside.
I love my dog. She sleeps on my bed.
I wish she could talk and tell me what to do.
Put her through this surgery so she can take forever to heal.
Just to wait for the next one.
Was looking at specialists online today.
Do I use my regular vet or someone else ?
I really don't know.
I quess I'll do what I think is best.
I don't want anymore dogs.
This is just too hard.
I'm the kind of gal that likes to hide from bad things.
I've had so many happen to me lately.
No matter what I do
They keep coming.
So, tomorrow I will decide what to do.
Where I get the money to pay for this.
For now, I'm just going to let her rest.
Just for now the meds have her out of pain
I don't like Fall
Look what it's brought me ...

Monday, October 5, 2009

Lilly Ann

As the days went by
I thought of you less
Never forgetting
Sometimes dreaming
How you were
The days we spent
The looks you gave
I'd give anything to
Have you back
Although I know
That you are gone
I will keep you
In my heart
Always there
Like you were
From the start
I am yours
And you are mine