Tuesday, October 13, 2009

look what it's brought me

This week I heard bad news about my beloved dog, Bella
We have no choice. She needs surgery. It's going to cost a lot.
She had surgery two years ago for a tumor.
She was a trooper. Recovered and kept on going.
Now, only a few years later, she needs another one.
Her xrays were terrible. She's a mess inside.
I love my dog. She sleeps on my bed.
I wish she could talk and tell me what to do.
Put her through this surgery so she can take forever to heal.
Just to wait for the next one.
Was looking at specialists online today.
Do I use my regular vet or someone else ?
I really don't know.
I quess I'll do what I think is best.
I don't want anymore dogs.
This is just too hard.
I'm the kind of gal that likes to hide from bad things.
I've had so many happen to me lately.
No matter what I do
They keep coming.
So, tomorrow I will decide what to do.
Where I get the money to pay for this.
For now, I'm just going to let her rest.
Just for now the meds have her out of pain
I don't like Fall
Look what it's brought me ...

1 comment:

Confucius Cat said...

I am so sorry to read this about Bella and about the pain you are both going through. You will be in my purrs and prayers. Mummy knows how you are feeling. We lost our beloved Zoe over a year ago. The pain is terrible but the joy she brought into our lives outweighed it. xoxo.