Monday, November 18, 2013

Warmth Needed

I am in hibernate mode.
This cooler weather has done me in.
The rain has arrived.
Not terrible but annoying.
Still have a few leaves
and the birds are still here.
Without that entertainment
I really don't know
what I'd do.
This being inside all the time
is just not for me.
I loved the past Spring and Summer.
I was able to be outside
most afternoons.
Either reading or just enjoying
the yard and it's surroundings.
I really need to move.
~ JC ~

Saturday, November 2, 2013


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It was bad news for me.
Nice man told me that it didn't work.
My fancy robotic surgery.
I've had two kidney surgeries.
Was told that I am worse instead of better or even stable.
Being schedule for surgery on my other kidney.
Have to repair that one too.
Was told that normally, we'd just leave those stones.
Not now.
We are in prepare to have one.
As in, table of one.
I'll take the kidney.

I'm in shock, I think.
Cried a bit but all that does is make my eyes look old
and worse than they were before.

Explains a lot though.
Pain wise.

No matter what I do, this old body of mine keeps thinking
of ways to get me.

I still plan on winning.
It's getting harder though.

I thought about it.
I'll give it one more try.

I am getting tired though.
Just want to give up.
I'm almost at that point.

~ JC ~