tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-45375746698369493672024-03-13T07:46:22.273-07:00Sagebrush And SailsJChttp://www.blogger.com/profile/13434534658681194289noreply@blogger.comBlogger160125tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-4537574669836949367.post-4517420343902993992015-09-21T20:43:00.002-07:002015-09-21T20:43:12.961-07:00Already<div style="text-align: center;">
<i>~ ~ ~</i></div>
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<i>Summer has come to an end.</i></div>
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<i>It was a warm one.</i></div>
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<i>Did a lot.</i></div>
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<i>Read lots of books.</i></div>
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<i>Sat in the sun.</i></div>
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<i>We had a lot of that.</i></div>
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<i>Not normal for us but warm is the new.</i></div>
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<i>Went on a few mini vacations.</i></div>
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<i>Had lots of fun.</i></div>
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<i><br /></i></div>
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<i>Read more books.</i></div>
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<i>Walked when I could.</i></div>
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<i>Sat and enjoyed the views.</i></div>
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<i>Had a grand time.</i></div>
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<i><br /></i></div>
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<i>Now, Fall has arrived.</i></div>
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<i>Getting cold.</i></div>
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<i>Rainy too.</i></div>
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<i><br /></i></div>
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<i>I miss Summer already.</i></div>
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<i><br /></i></div>
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<i>Just saying ...</i></div>
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<i><br /></i></div>
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<i>~ JC ~</i></div>
JChttp://www.blogger.com/profile/13434534658681194289noreply@blogger.com1tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-4537574669836949367.post-54912117548280039532015-04-02T09:30:00.001-07:002015-04-02T09:30:18.374-07:00Twice As Much<div style="text-align: center;">
<i>~ ~ ~ </i></div>
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<i>Lots of things going on in my life.</i></div>
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<i>Odd to be going back in time.</i></div>
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<i>Some things I remember and some I don't.</i></div>
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<i>People I haven't talked to in thirty years.</i></div>
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<i>That's a long time.</i></div>
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<i>Some are very friendly</i></div>
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<i>and some aren't.</i></div>
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<i>Change is good.</i></div>
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<i>Some don't and some do.</i></div>
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<i>Might see a few of them.</i></div>
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<i>Might not.</i></div>
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<i>Haven't decided yet.</i></div>
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<i>Me, I've changed so much.</i></div>
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<i>I'm bolder.</i></div>
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<i>Wiser.</i></div>
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<i>Calmer.</i></div>
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<i>Scratch that .. I was wise and calm.</i></div>
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<i>I was a watcher.</i></div>
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<i>The silliness that was.</i></div>
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<i>Now, I live a richer life.</i></div>
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<i>Not needing any of the oddness that goes on.</i></div>
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<i>I am a loner and a watcher.</i></div>
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<i>I prefer to just be.</i></div>
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<i><br /></i></div>
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<i>On the old body going crazy department.</i></div>
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<i>I have three things going on.</i></div>
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<i>Not one but three.</i></div>
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<i>As if I didn't have anything to do</i></div>
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<i>with my old life.</i></div>
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<i>It seems that I will always</i></div>
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<i>be fighting to survive.</i></div>
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<i>It does get tiring and emotionally challenging.</i></div>
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<i>I will try to not be that lady.</i></div>
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<i>The one who goes outside</i></div>
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<i>and yells at the world.</i></div>
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<i>I've done that before.</i></div>
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<i>Many times in fact.</i></div>
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<i>So, if you see someone doing that</i></div>
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<i>just know that it might be me.</i></div>
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<i>Just saying ...</i></div>
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<i><br /></i></div>
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<i>~ JC ~</i></div>
JChttp://www.blogger.com/profile/13434534658681194289noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-4537574669836949367.post-86610965463483702472015-03-23T08:27:00.001-07:002015-03-23T08:27:46.649-07:00Happenings<div style="text-align: center;">
<i>~ ~ ~</i></div>
<div style="text-align: center;">
<i>It's been a while.</i></div>
<div style="text-align: center;">
<i>I know.</i></div>
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<i>Life.</i></div>
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<i>Keeps me busy.</i></div>
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<i>I mean to get here.</i></div>
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<i>Just haven't until today.</i></div>
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<i><br /></i></div>
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<i>Lots of things going on.</i></div>
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<i>People doing bad things.</i></div>
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<i>Getting away with it.</i></div>
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<i>Me, trying to warn others.</i></div>
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<i>No one listened.</i></div>
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<i>They thought I was being odd.</i></div>
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<i>Nope, just telling the truth.</i></div>
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<i>That's why no one tells others.</i></div>
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<i>No one believes.</i></div>
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<i>So, the person who did it,</i></div>
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<i>gets away with it.</i></div>
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<i>What can I say.</i></div>
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<i>Just annoyed at people.</i></div>
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<i>It's the reason I stay</i></div>
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<i>kind of away</i></div>
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<i>in my woods.</i></div>
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<i><br /></i></div>
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(I live in a homeowners association neighborhood.</div>
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The current board members are sort of </div>
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like a group of dictators.</div>
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I volunteered last year.</div>
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Was treated terribly.</div>
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Decided I didn't want to put up with it.</div>
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This year, I wrote the neighborhood</div>
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a note telling them what happened.</div>
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No one believed me.</div>
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They got away with it.</div>
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That's why people don't tell</div>
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anyone what happens.)</div>
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<br /></div>
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What I learned ..</div>
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Never volunteer (at least not in my neighborhood)</div>
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Always believe in yourself</div>
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There really are bad people </div>
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(I already knew that but still when you actually meet</div>
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one .. I'm still shocked)</div>
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I now will watch as they continue to do</div>
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what they want and see if any of the</div>
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goofs who live here</div>
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do anything about it.</div>
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I'm only one person</div>
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and without others listening</div>
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nothing will be done.</div>
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At least I tried.</div>
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Can walk away knowing that.</div>
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<br /></div>
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Confirms why I'm kind of loner</div>
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I watch from the woods</div>
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<br /></div>
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And, that is my talk to myself.</div>
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<br /></div>
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~ JC ~</div>
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JChttp://www.blogger.com/profile/13434534658681194289noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-4537574669836949367.post-62079528828155390972015-01-26T13:07:00.001-08:002015-01-26T13:07:46.847-08:00What Is That<div style="text-align: center;">
<i><span style="font-size: large;">The sun has decided to visit.</span></i></div>
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<i><span style="font-size: large;">How that just makes the day.</span></i></div>
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<i><span style="font-size: large;">I live in the woods.</span></i></div>
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<i><span style="font-size: large;">Dark in the Winter.</span></i></div>
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<i><span style="font-size: large;">Wet from the rain.</span></i></div>
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<i><span style="font-size: large;">Green from the trees and moss.</span></i></div>
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<i><span style="font-size: large;">Yes, I said moss.</span></i></div>
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<i><span style="font-size: large;">Down my driveway and into the woods.</span></i></div>
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<i><span style="font-size: large;">I love it here. Most times.</span></i></div>
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<i><span style="font-size: large;">Only when it's yucky wet and dark, nope.</span></i></div>
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<i><span style="font-size: large;">So, today with yellow stuff visiting,</span></i></div>
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<i><span style="font-size: large;">it makes me think,</span></i></div>
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<i><span style="font-size: large;">that Spring might come back.</span></i></div>
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<i><span style="font-size: large;">It is amazing here</span></i></div>
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<i><span style="font-size: large;">in the Spring and Summer.</span></i></div>
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<i><span style="font-size: large;">Most of the early Fall days too.</span></i></div>
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<i><span style="font-size: large;">It's just the green slimy walkways</span></i></div>
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<i><span style="font-size: large;">that make an old lady trip</span></i></div>
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<i><span style="font-size: large;">and the lawn that looks terrible</span></i></div>
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<i><span style="font-size: large;">due to moss and the feet</span></i></div>
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<i><span style="font-size: large;">that sink into it</span></i></div>
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<i><span style="font-size: large;">if you don't look where </span></i></div>
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<i><span style="font-size: large;">you are walking.</span></i></div>
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<i><span style="font-size: large;">Like I said, the sun is out.</span></i></div>
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<i><span style="font-size: large;">Brings me hope.</span></i></div>
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<i><span style="font-size: large;">I still won't be going out</span></i></div>
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<i><span style="font-size: large;">there though but soon.</span></i></div>
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<i><span style="font-size: large;"><br /></span></i></div>
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<i><span style="font-size: large;">Mew At You Later,</span></i></div>
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<i><span style="font-size: large;">JC</span></i></div>
JChttp://www.blogger.com/profile/13434534658681194289noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-4537574669836949367.post-73885529813210036102014-12-09T19:04:00.000-08:002014-12-09T19:04:03.027-08:00Just Life<div style="text-align: center;">
<i><span style="font-family: Georgia, Times New Roman, serif; font-size: large;">~ ~ ~</span></i></div>
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<i><span style="font-family: Georgia, Times New Roman, serif; font-size: large;"><br /></span></i></div>
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<i><span style="font-family: Georgia, Times New Roman, serif; font-size: large;">Been a while since I've been here.</span></i></div>
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<i><span style="font-family: Georgia, Times New Roman, serif; font-size: large;">Lots went on.</span></i></div>
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<i><span style="font-family: Georgia, Times New Roman, serif; font-size: large;"><br /></span></i></div>
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<i><span style="font-family: Georgia, Times New Roman, serif; font-size: large;">Spring and Summer.</span></i></div>
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<i><span style="font-family: Georgia, Times New Roman, serif; font-size: large;">Warm.</span></i></div>
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<i><span style="font-family: Georgia, Times New Roman, serif; font-size: large;">My dog was worn out.</span></i></div>
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<i><span style="font-family: Georgia, Times New Roman, serif; font-size: large;">She died.</span></i></div>
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<i><span style="font-family: Georgia, Times New Roman, serif; font-size: large;">Very very sad times.</span></i></div>
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<i><span style="font-family: Georgia, Times New Roman, serif; font-size: large;">Most of that time was spent</span></i></div>
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<i><span style="font-family: Georgia, Times New Roman, serif; font-size: large;">helping her in the last days.</span></i></div>
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<i><span style="font-family: Georgia, Times New Roman, serif; font-size: large;"><br /></span></i></div>
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<i><span style="font-family: Georgia, Times New Roman, serif; font-size: large;">Next we recovered.</span></i></div>
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<i><span style="font-family: Georgia, Times New Roman, serif; font-size: large;">It took a mental toll</span></i></div>
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<i><span style="font-family: Georgia, Times New Roman, serif; font-size: large;">on everyone.</span></i></div>
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<i><span style="font-family: Georgia, Times New Roman, serif; font-size: large;">Not the cats but the humans</span></i></div>
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<i><span style="font-family: Georgia, Times New Roman, serif; font-size: large;">and my other dog.</span></i></div>
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<i><span style="font-family: Georgia, Times New Roman, serif; font-size: large;"><br /></span></i></div>
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<i><span style="font-family: Georgia, Times New Roman, serif; font-size: large;">We did decide to adopt.</span></i></div>
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<i><span style="font-family: Georgia, Times New Roman, serif; font-size: large;">A new puppy has </span></i></div>
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<i><span style="font-family: Georgia, Times New Roman, serif; font-size: large;">kept me hopping.</span></i></div>
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<i><span style="font-family: Georgia, Times New Roman, serif; font-size: large;">Literally.</span></i></div>
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<i><span style="font-family: Georgia, Times New Roman, serif; font-size: large;">I'm almost sleeping</span></i></div>
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<i><span style="font-family: Georgia, Times New Roman, serif; font-size: large;">through the nights.</span></i></div>
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<i><span style="font-family: Georgia, Times New Roman, serif; font-size: large;">We're at that stage</span></i></div>
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<i><span style="font-family: Georgia, Times New Roman, serif; font-size: large;">of the new fur ball</span></i></div>
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<i><span style="font-family: Georgia, Times New Roman, serif; font-size: large;">in the house.</span></i></div>
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<i><span style="font-family: Georgia, Times New Roman, serif; font-size: large;"><br /></span></i></div>
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<i><span style="font-family: Georgia, Times New Roman, serif; font-size: large;">The normal that will be</span></i></div>
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<i><span style="font-family: Georgia, Times New Roman, serif; font-size: large;">is almost here.</span></i></div>
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<i><span style="font-family: Georgia, Times New Roman, serif; font-size: large;">The cats don't really care.</span></i></div>
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<i><span style="font-family: Georgia, Times New Roman, serif; font-size: large;">Not after that first week</span></i></div>
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<i><span style="font-family: Georgia, Times New Roman, serif; font-size: large;">where they were</span></i></div>
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<i><span style="font-family: Georgia, Times New Roman, serif; font-size: large;">what did Mom do </span></i></div>
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<i><span style="font-family: Georgia, Times New Roman, serif; font-size: large;">this time.</span></i></div>
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<i><span style="font-family: Georgia, Times New Roman, serif; font-size: large;"><br /></span></i></div>
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<i><span style="font-family: Georgia, Times New Roman, serif; font-size: large;">Now, it's just oh</span></i></div>
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<i><span style="font-family: Georgia, Times New Roman, serif; font-size: large;">it's the short dog.</span></i></div>
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<i><span style="font-family: Georgia, Times New Roman, serif; font-size: large;"><br /></span></i></div>
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<i><span style="font-family: Georgia, Times New Roman, serif; font-size: large;">The Winter blahs</span></i></div>
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<i><span style="font-family: Georgia, Times New Roman, serif; font-size: large;">have arrived.</span></i></div>
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<i><span style="font-family: Georgia, Times New Roman, serif; font-size: large;">Rain, cold, snow, ice</span></i></div>
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<i><span style="font-family: Georgia, Times New Roman, serif; font-size: large;">and wind.</span></i></div>
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<i><span style="font-family: Georgia, Times New Roman, serif; font-size: large;">I do so enjoy the</span></i></div>
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<i><span style="font-family: Georgia, Times New Roman, serif; font-size: large;">warmer months.</span></i></div>
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<i><span style="font-family: Georgia, Times New Roman, serif; font-size: large;">I always have.</span></i></div>
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<i><span style="font-family: Georgia, Times New Roman, serif; font-size: large;">I always will.</span></i></div>
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<i><span style="font-family: Georgia, Times New Roman, serif; font-size: large;"><br /></span></i></div>
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<i><span style="font-family: Georgia, Times New Roman, serif; font-size: large;">That's the latest.</span></i></div>
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<i><span style="font-family: Georgia, Times New Roman, serif; font-size: large;">No big deals .. really.</span></i></div>
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<i><span style="font-family: Georgia, Times New Roman, serif; font-size: large;">Just life.</span></i></div>
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<i><span style="font-family: Georgia, Times New Roman, serif; font-size: large;">As it goes</span></i></div>
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<i><span style="font-family: Georgia, Times New Roman, serif; font-size: large;">over here.</span></i></div>
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<i><span style="font-family: Georgia, Times New Roman, serif; font-size: large;"><br /></span></i></div>
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<i><span style="font-family: Georgia, Times New Roman, serif; font-size: large;">~ JC ~</span></i></div>
JChttp://www.blogger.com/profile/13434534658681194289noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-4537574669836949367.post-30161619397184419392014-06-17T19:07:00.000-07:002014-06-17T19:07:42.152-07:00Sad<div style="text-align: center;">
<i>~ ~ ~</i></div>
<div style="text-align: center;">
<i>The past came to call.</i></div>
<div style="text-align: center;">
<i>Memories long past.</i></div>
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<i>Some good.</i></div>
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<i>Some not so much.</i></div>
<div style="text-align: center;">
<i>I had a decision to make.</i></div>
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<i>Go or stay.</i></div>
<div style="text-align: center;">
<i>I went.</i></div>
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<i>Very sad.</i></div>
<div style="text-align: center;">
<i>Hard to see.</i></div>
<div style="text-align: center;">
<i>I would never have wished this for them.</i></div>
<div style="text-align: center;">
<i>Ever.</i></div>
<div style="text-align: center;">
<i>Too much hurt along the way.</i></div>
<div style="text-align: center;">
<i>On their side.</i></div>
<div style="text-align: center;">
<i>Me, I just put up with it.</i></div>
<div style="text-align: center;">
<i>Until, I did not.</i></div>
<div style="text-align: center;">
<i>Been years.</i></div>
<div style="text-align: center;">
<i>Haven't seen or talked to them.</i></div>
<div style="text-align: center;">
<i>Very odd.</i></div>
<div style="text-align: center;">
<i>Didn't know if I wanted to go.</i></div>
<div style="text-align: center;">
<i>Didn't think I'd ever see them again.</i></div>
<div style="text-align: center;">
<i>Seems that I won't talk to them again.</i></div>
<div style="text-align: center;">
<i>Thought a lot.</i></div>
<div style="text-align: center;">
<i>Very odd.</i></div>
<div style="text-align: center;">
<i>What a shame that their life</i></div>
<div style="text-align: center;">
<i>ended up this way.</i></div>
<div style="text-align: center;">
<i>Could have been so different.</i></div>
<div style="text-align: center;">
<i>Didn't need to be this way.</i></div>
<div style="text-align: center;">
<i>Very sad.</i></div>
<div style="text-align: center;">
<i>I did cry when I saw them.</i></div>
<div style="text-align: center;">
<i>Now, I am just sad for them.</i></div>
<div style="text-align: center;">
<i>What a waste.</i></div>
<div style="text-align: center;">
<i>What could have been.</i></div>
<div style="text-align: center;">
<i><br /></i></div>
<div style="text-align: center;">
<i>~ JC ~</i></div>
<div style="text-align: center;">
<i><br /></i></div>
<div style="text-align: center;">
<i>( my older sister tried to commit suicide.</i></div>
<div style="text-align: center;">
<i>She is now in a coma.</i></div>
<div style="text-align: center;">
<i>I haven't talked to her in four years.</i></div>
<div style="text-align: center;">
<i>I haven't seen her in seven.</i></div>
<div style="text-align: center;">
<i>We were never friends.</i></div>
<div style="text-align: center;">
<i>She was just my older sister.</i></div>
<div style="text-align: center;">
<i>Not friendly.</i></div>
<div style="text-align: center;">
<i>There are moments though.</i></div>
<div style="text-align: center;">
<i>Few but there.</i></div>
<div style="text-align: center;">
<i>What a shame that she ended up this way.</i></div>
<div style="text-align: center;">
<i>She didn't call me.</i></div>
<div style="text-align: center;">
<i>She didn't think of me.</i></div>
<div style="text-align: center;">
<i>That's just like her.</i></div>
<div style="text-align: center;">
<i>Sad.</i></div>
<div style="text-align: center;">
<i>That's all I feel.</i></div>
<div style="text-align: center;">
<i>So sad that she ended up this way.)</i></div>
JChttp://www.blogger.com/profile/13434534658681194289noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-4537574669836949367.post-18980796163157971812014-06-02T09:08:00.002-07:002014-06-02T09:08:39.355-07:00Nice May Day<div style="text-align: center;">
<i><span style="font-size: large;"><br /></span></i></div>
<div style="text-align: center;">
<i><span style="font-size: large;">~ ~ ~</span></i></div>
<div style="text-align: center;">
<i><span style="font-size: large;">Yesterday, was a nice day.</span></i></div>
<div style="text-align: center;">
<i><span style="font-size: large;">Warm and not too windy.</span></i></div>
<div style="text-align: center;">
<i><span style="font-size: large;">Just right actually.</span></i></div>
<div style="text-align: center;">
<i><span style="font-size: large;">Later in the afternoon, it got a bit hot.</span></i></div>
<div style="text-align: center;">
<i><span style="font-size: large;">Off to the shade, I would go.</span></i></div>
<div style="text-align: center;">
<i><span style="font-size: large;">Did a bit of work in the yard.</span></i></div>
<div style="text-align: center;">
<i><span style="font-size: large;">Those weeds are terrible.</span></i></div>
<div style="text-align: center;">
<i><span style="font-size: large;">Everywhere they are.</span></i></div>
<div style="text-align: center;">
<i><span style="font-size: large;">I think it's the wind blowing them in</span></i></div>
<div style="text-align: center;">
<i><span style="font-size: large;">from someone else's yard.</span></i></div>
<div style="text-align: center;">
<i><span style="font-size: large;">Oh well, at least there is a nice view.</span></i></div>
<div style="text-align: center;">
<i><span style="font-size: large;">Was thinking that May was a good month.</span></i></div>
<div style="text-align: center;">
<i><span style="font-size: large;">Very relaxing, which I need.</span></i></div>
<div style="text-align: center;">
<i><span style="font-size: large;">I like pretending.</span></i></div>
<div style="text-align: center;">
<i><span style="font-size: large;">I like it very much.</span></i></div>
<div style="text-align: center;">
<i><span style="font-size: large;"><br /></span></i></div>
<div style="text-align: center;">
<i><span style="font-size: large;">~ JC ~</span></i></div>
<div style="text-align: center;">
<i><span style="font-size: large;"><br /></span></i></div>
<div style="text-align: center;">
<i><span style="font-size: large;">(I know it's June now but what a nice month May was)</span></i></div>
JChttp://www.blogger.com/profile/13434534658681194289noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-4537574669836949367.post-71853732529180854682014-05-28T08:44:00.001-07:002014-05-28T08:44:36.955-07:00Thinking<div style="text-align: center;">
<i>~ ~ ~ </i></div>
<div style="text-align: center;">
<i>I have been thinking.</i></div>
<div style="text-align: center;">
<i>In the Spring, I'm able to be outside more.</i></div>
<div style="text-align: center;">
<i>The colors of nature have arrived.</i></div>
<div style="text-align: center;">
<i>I like this time of year.</i></div>
<div style="text-align: center;">
<i><br /></i></div>
<div style="text-align: center;">
<i>Even in the confusion of my life,</i></div>
<div style="text-align: center;">
<i>if I can figure things out,</i></div>
<div style="text-align: center;">
<i>I have a joy to each day.</i></div>
<div style="text-align: center;">
<i><br /></i></div>
<div style="text-align: center;">
<i>One part of my time</i></div>
<div style="text-align: center;">
<i>is very happy.</i></div>
<div style="text-align: center;">
<i>Can't complain about any of it.</i></div>
<div style="text-align: center;">
<i>The other part, </i><i>is terrible.</i></div>
<div style="text-align: center;">
<i>I don't like to dwell</i></div>
<div style="text-align: center;">
<i>on that too much.</i></div>
<div style="text-align: center;">
<i>Only when it reminds me.</i></div>
<div style="text-align: center;">
<i><br /></i></div>
<div style="text-align: center;">
<i>Each day I make a list.</i></div>
<div style="text-align: center;">
<i>What am I going to try to do.</i></div>
<div style="text-align: center;">
<i>I make the best of what happens.</i></div>
<div style="text-align: center;">
<i>Don't we all ?</i></div>
<div style="text-align: center;">
<i><br /></i></div>
<div style="text-align: center;">
<i>I've had a lot happen.</i></div>
<div style="text-align: center;">
<i>Mentally it does get to me.</i></div>
<div style="text-align: center;">
<i>I'm not close to perfect.</i></div>
<div style="text-align: center;">
<i>Not at all.</i></div>
<div style="text-align: center;">
<i><br /></i></div>
<div style="text-align: center;">
<i>Only I do win the prize,</i></div>
<div style="text-align: center;">
<i>if there is one, </i><i>for trying.</i></div>
<div style="text-align: center;">
<i>I keep on going </i><i>no matter what.</i></div>
<div style="text-align: center;">
<i><br /></i></div>
<div style="text-align: center;">
<i>That's got to count </i><i>for something.</i></div>
<div style="text-align: center;">
<i><br /></i></div>
<div style="text-align: center;">
<i>Just saying ~</i></div>
<div style="text-align: center;">
<i><br /></i></div>
<div style="text-align: center;">
<i>~ JC ~</i></div>
JChttp://www.blogger.com/profile/13434534658681194289noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-4537574669836949367.post-42021717559280696762014-05-05T08:43:00.000-07:002014-05-05T08:43:26.336-07:00Don't Get It<div style="text-align: center;">
<i>~ ~ ~</i></div>
<div style="text-align: center;">
<i>Some things in life I just don't like.</i></div>
<div style="text-align: center;">
<i>Mean people.</i></div>
<div style="text-align: center;">
<i>Things they say.</i></div>
<div style="text-align: center;">
<i>If they thought later,</i></div>
<div style="text-align: center;">
<i>why wouldn't they run back</i></div>
<div style="text-align: center;">
<i>to tell that person </i></div>
<div style="text-align: center;">
<i>they had done wrong</i></div>
<div style="text-align: center;">
<i>that they had made a mistake.</i></div>
<div style="text-align: center;">
<i><br /></i></div>
<div style="text-align: center;">
<i>Like they should have been</i></div>
<div style="text-align: center;">
<i>taught as a child.</i></div>
<div style="text-align: center;">
<i>Or, was I the only one</i></div>
<div style="text-align: center;">
<i>taught to be kind.</i></div>
<div style="text-align: center;">
<i>To think and rethink</i></div>
<div style="text-align: center;">
<i>about your life.</i></div>
<div style="text-align: center;">
<i><br /></i></div>
<div style="text-align: center;">
<i>I still to this day</i></div>
<div style="text-align: center;">
<i>and I'm old as can be</i></div>
<div style="text-align: center;">
<i>do not understand why</i></div>
<div style="text-align: center;">
<i>this happens.</i></div>
<div style="text-align: center;">
<i><br /></i></div>
<div style="text-align: center;">
<i>Eveyone makes mistakes.</i></div>
<div style="text-align: center;">
<i>Has a lousy moment or life.</i></div>
<div style="text-align: center;">
<i>To not get it though.</i></div>
<div style="text-align: center;">
<i>To not realize that you should</i></div>
<div style="text-align: center;">
<i>always want to do better.</i></div>
<div style="text-align: center;">
<i>To be kind and polite.</i></div>
<div style="text-align: center;">
<i><br /></i></div>
<div style="text-align: center;">
<i>I want to sit them down.</i></div>
<div style="text-align: center;">
<i>To talk to them.</i></div>
<div style="text-align: center;">
<i>To make them get it.</i></div>
<div style="text-align: center;">
<i><br /></i></div>
<div style="text-align: center;">
<i>Only I don't get to.</i></div>
<div style="text-align: center;">
<i>So, I will always be bothered</i></div>
<div style="text-align: center;">
<i>by people and what they do and say.</i></div>
<div style="text-align: center;">
<i><br /></i></div>
<div style="text-align: center;">
<i>Maybe that's why I don't do much</i></div>
<div style="text-align: center;">
<i>with them. </i></div>
<div style="text-align: center;">
<i><br /></i></div>
<div style="text-align: center;">
<i>People.</i></div>
<div style="text-align: center;">
<i><br /></i></div>
<div style="text-align: center;">
<i>Only so much harsh words are </i></div>
<div style="text-align: center;">
<i>aloud in my life.</i></div>
<div style="text-align: center;">
<i>I've had my quota.</i></div>
<div style="text-align: center;">
<i>No more.</i></div>
<div style="text-align: center;">
<i><br /></i></div>
<div style="text-align: center;">
<i>~ JC ~</i></div>
JChttp://www.blogger.com/profile/13434534658681194289noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-4537574669836949367.post-90991898844871842442014-04-24T15:56:00.002-07:002014-04-24T15:56:28.333-07:00Windows<div style="text-align: center;">
<i><span style="font-size: large;">~ ~ ~</span></i></div>
<div style="text-align: center;">
<i><span style="font-size: large;">I am the thoughts in my head.</span></i></div>
<div style="text-align: center;">
<i><span style="font-size: large;">Healing the wounds of life.</span></i></div>
<div style="text-align: center;">
<i><span style="font-size: large;">Never being more than the less.</span></i></div>
<div style="text-align: center;">
<i><span style="font-size: large;">Always climbing to the sight.</span></i></div>
<div style="text-align: center;">
<i><span style="font-size: large;">I will not be the willow tree.</span></i></div>
<div style="text-align: center;">
<i><span style="font-size: large;">I will be me.</span></i></div>
<div style="text-align: center;">
<i><span style="font-size: large;">The narrowness of my window</span></i></div>
<div style="text-align: center;">
<i><span style="font-size: large;">leaves me with a view.</span></i></div>
<div style="text-align: center;">
<i><span style="font-size: large;">I can see just a bit of what </span></i></div>
<div style="text-align: center;">
<i><span style="font-size: large;">the day has brought.</span></i></div>
<div style="text-align: center;">
<i><span style="font-size: large;">Knowing all too well</span></i></div>
<div style="text-align: center;">
<i><span style="font-size: large;">the moments that will follow.</span></i></div>
<div style="text-align: center;">
<i><span style="font-size: large;">No one know me like me.</span></i></div>
<div style="text-align: center;">
<i><span style="font-size: large;">I laugh at those who think they do.</span></i></div>
<div style="text-align: center;">
<i><span style="font-size: large;">I will fight to be </span></i></div>
<div style="text-align: center;">
<i><span style="font-size: large;">for as long as I see the light.</span></i></div>
<div style="text-align: center;">
<i><span style="font-size: large;"><br /></span></i></div>
<div style="text-align: center;">
<i><span style="font-size: large;">~ JC ~</span></i></div>
<div style="text-align: center;">
<i><span style="font-size: large;"><br /></span></i></div>
<div style="text-align: center;">
<i><span style="font-size: large;">Thoughts on a rainy afternoon.</span></i></div>
<div style="text-align: center;">
<i><span style="font-size: large;">I woke up from my coma</span></i></div>
<div style="text-align: center;">
<i><span style="font-size: large;">almost eight years ago.</span></i></div>
<div style="text-align: center;">
<i><span style="font-size: large;">I look fine.</span></i></div>
<div style="text-align: center;">
<i><span style="font-size: large;">I am.</span></i></div>
<div style="text-align: center;">
<i><span style="font-size: large;">The windows of my mind,</span></i></div>
<div style="text-align: center;">
<i><span style="font-size: large;">not so much.</span></i></div>
<div style="text-align: center;">
<i><span style="font-size: large;"><br /></span></i></div>
<div style="text-align: center;">
<i><br /></i></div>
JChttp://www.blogger.com/profile/13434534658681194289noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-4537574669836949367.post-63530021802923818752014-04-10T11:20:00.003-07:002014-04-10T11:20:30.551-07:00Thinking<div style="text-align: center;">
<i><span style="font-size: large;">~ ~ ~</span></i></div>
<div style="text-align: center;">
<i><span style="font-size: large;">I've been thinking a lot.</span></i></div>
<div style="text-align: center;">
<i><span style="font-size: large;">About everything.</span></i></div>
<div style="text-align: center;">
<i><span style="font-size: large;">Relationships.</span></i></div>
<div style="text-align: center;">
<i><span style="font-size: large;">People and how they act.</span></i></div>
<div style="text-align: center;">
<i><span style="font-size: large;">Why they do what they do.</span></i></div>
<div style="text-align: center;">
<i><span style="font-size: large;">I am a watcher.</span></i></div>
<div style="text-align: center;">
<i><span style="font-size: large;">A listener.</span></i></div>
<div style="text-align: center;">
<i><span style="font-size: large;">A figure it out kind of gal.</span></i></div>
<div style="text-align: center;">
<i><span style="font-size: large;">I see both sides and in between.</span></i></div>
<div style="text-align: center;">
<i><span style="font-size: large;">I just want to talk to people.</span></i></div>
<div style="text-align: center;">
<i><span style="font-size: large;">Ask them to think.</span></i></div>
<div style="text-align: center;">
<i><span style="font-size: large;">Some are just out there.</span></i></div>
<div style="text-align: center;">
<i><span style="font-size: large;">Lost in their land of what the heck.</span></i></div>
<div style="text-align: center;">
<i><span style="font-size: large;">Me, I try to do the best option.</span></i></div>
<div style="text-align: center;">
<i><span style="font-size: large;">I try to be nice and considerate.</span></i></div>
<div style="text-align: center;">
<i><span style="font-size: large;">I often say that I am not judgmental.</span></i></div>
<div style="text-align: center;">
<i><span style="font-size: large;">Maybe I am though.</span></i></div>
<div style="text-align: center;">
<i><span style="font-size: large;">After watching people.</span></i></div>
<div style="text-align: center;">
<i><span style="font-size: large;">Listening to them.</span></i></div>
<div style="text-align: center;">
<i><span style="font-size: large;">I do judge them on the way they act</span></i></div>
<div style="text-align: center;">
<i><span style="font-size: large;">and on what they say.</span></i></div>
<div style="text-align: center;">
<i><span style="font-size: large;">Always thinking</span></i></div>
<div style="text-align: center;">
<i><span style="font-size: large;">over here in my woods.</span></i></div>
<div style="text-align: center;">
<i><span style="font-size: large;"><br /></span></i></div>
<div style="text-align: center;">
<i><span style="font-size: large;">~ JC ~</span></i></div>
JChttp://www.blogger.com/profile/13434534658681194289noreply@blogger.com1tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-4537574669836949367.post-18772753390730754792014-04-02T09:37:00.001-07:002014-04-02T09:37:23.082-07:00Wise Soul<div style="text-align: center;">
<i><span style="font-size: large;">~ ~ ~ </span></i></div>
<div style="text-align: center;">
<i><span style="font-size: large;">When you are fighting for each day,</span></i></div>
<div style="text-align: center;">
<i><span style="font-size: large;">you get in a survival mode.</span></i></div>
<div style="text-align: center;">
<i><span style="font-size: large;">To be told that you made it.</span></i></div>
<div style="text-align: center;">
<i><span style="font-size: large;">The long fight is over.</span></i></div>
<div style="text-align: center;">
<i><span style="font-size: large;">It's an odd feeling.</span></i></div>
<div style="text-align: center;">
<i><span style="font-size: large;">The fear of what if it starts again.</span></i></div>
<div style="text-align: center;">
<i><span style="font-size: large;">I've been fighting for so long.</span></i></div>
<div style="text-align: center;">
<i><span style="font-size: large;"><br /></span></i></div>
<div style="text-align: center;">
<i><span style="font-size: large;">The days have been enjoyed.</span></i></div>
<div style="text-align: center;">
<i><span style="font-size: large;">Always looking over my shoulder though.</span></i></div>
<div style="text-align: center;">
<i><span style="font-size: large;">To see who's walking just behind.</span></i></div>
<div style="text-align: center;">
<i><span style="font-size: large;">Did they catch up ?</span></i></div>
<div style="text-align: center;">
<i><span style="font-size: large;">Who are they ?</span></i></div>
<div style="text-align: center;">
<i><span style="font-size: large;">Friend or foe ?</span></i></div>
<div style="text-align: center;">
<i><span style="font-size: large;"><br /></span></i></div>
<div style="text-align: center;">
<i><span style="font-size: large;">So, with that happening</span></i></div>
<div style="text-align: center;">
<i><span style="font-size: large;">I have not been writing lately.</span></i></div>
<div style="text-align: center;">
<i><span style="font-size: large;">Just trying to figure out</span></i></div>
<div style="text-align: center;">
<i><span style="font-size: large;">what I want to do</span></i></div>
<div style="text-align: center;">
<i><span style="font-size: large;">without all of this </span></i></div>
<div style="text-align: center;">
<i><span style="font-size: large;">nasty stuff </span></i></div>
<div style="text-align: center;">
<i><span style="font-size: large;">forcing into my life.</span></i></div>
<div style="text-align: center;">
<i><span style="font-size: large;"><br /></span></i></div>
<div style="text-align: center;">
<i><span style="font-size: large;">Not that it's all gone</span></i></div>
<div style="text-align: center;">
<i><span style="font-size: large;">but for now the </span></i></div>
<div style="text-align: center;">
<i><span style="font-size: large;">'you must do this now'</span></i></div>
<div style="text-align: center;">
<i><span style="font-size: large;">part is done.</span></i></div>
<div style="text-align: center;">
<i><span style="font-size: large;"><br /></span></i></div>
<div style="text-align: center;">
<i><span style="font-size: large;">I survived.</span></i></div>
<div style="text-align: center;">
<i><span style="font-size: large;">Done that several times now.</span></i></div>
<div style="text-align: center;">
<i><span style="font-size: large;">Only the scars that are left behind</span></i></div>
<div style="text-align: center;">
<i><span style="font-size: large;">are seriously life changing.</span></i></div>
<div style="text-align: center;">
<i><span style="font-size: large;">(mental and physical)</span></i></div>
<div style="text-align: center;">
<i><span style="font-size: large;"><br /></span></i></div>
<div style="text-align: center;">
<i><span style="font-size: large;">It takes a toll on a soul.</span></i></div>
<div style="text-align: center;">
<i><span style="font-size: large;">I ought to know.</span></i></div>
<div style="text-align: center;">
<i><span style="font-size: large;"><br /></span></i></div>
<div style="text-align: center;">
<i><span style="font-size: large;">To look at me,</span></i></div>
<div style="text-align: center;">
<i><span style="font-size: large;">I don't really show it.</span></i></div>
<div style="text-align: center;">
<i><span style="font-size: large;">Maybe in the wrinkles</span></i></div>
<div style="text-align: center;">
<i><span style="font-size: large;">and the eyes.</span></i></div>
<div style="text-align: center;">
<i><span style="font-size: large;"><br /></span></i></div>
<div style="text-align: center;">
<i><span style="font-size: large;">I am an old wise lady.</span></i></div>
<div style="text-align: center;">
<i><span style="font-size: large;">The stories I could tell.</span></i></div>
<div style="text-align: center;">
<i><span style="font-size: large;"><br /></span></i></div>
<div style="text-align: center;">
<i><span style="font-size: large;">~ JC ~</span></i></div>
JChttp://www.blogger.com/profile/13434534658681194289noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-4537574669836949367.post-58596863941680476822014-03-23T13:05:00.003-07:002014-03-23T13:05:31.047-07:00Until<div style="text-align: center;">
<i><span style="font-size: large;">~ ~ ~</span></i></div>
<div style="text-align: center;">
<i><span style="font-size: large;">I haven't written in a while.</span></i></div>
<div style="text-align: center;">
<i><span style="font-size: large;">Been busy with life and things that happen.</span></i></div>
<div style="text-align: center;">
<i><span style="font-size: large;">I am at peace.</span></i></div>
<div style="text-align: center;">
<i><span style="font-size: large;">At least for now.</span></i></div>
<div style="text-align: center;">
<i><span style="font-size: large;">The major storms of my life are over.</span></i></div>
<div style="text-align: center;">
<i><span style="font-size: large;">I think.</span></i></div>
<div style="text-align: center;">
<i><span style="font-size: large;">Now, to venture into the unknown.</span></i></div>
<div style="text-align: center;">
<i><span style="font-size: large;">The what to do now stuff.</span></i></div>
<div style="text-align: center;">
<i><span style="font-size: large;">Until I know for sure,</span></i></div>
<div style="text-align: center;">
<i><span style="font-size: large;">I will just enjoy each day.</span></i></div>
<div style="text-align: center;">
<i><span style="font-size: large;"><br /></span></i></div>
<div style="text-align: center;">
<i><span style="font-size: large;">~ JC ~</span></i></div>
JChttp://www.blogger.com/profile/13434534658681194289noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-4537574669836949367.post-54547792842924248012014-02-18T09:58:00.002-08:002014-02-18T09:58:50.542-08:00Odd Time Of year<div align="center">
<em><span style="font-size: large;">~ ~ ~</span></em></div>
<div align="center">
<em><span style="font-size: large;">It's an odd time of year.</span></em></div>
<div align="center">
<em><span style="font-size: large;">Wet and cold.</span></em></div>
<div align="center">
<em><span style="font-size: large;">Looking forward to warmer days.</span></em></div>
<div align="center">
<em><span style="font-size: large;">Hoping that the blooms</span></em></div>
<div align="center">
<em><span style="font-size: large;">of last year</span></em></div>
<div align="center">
<em><span style="font-size: large;">arrived again this Spring.</span></em></div>
<div align="center">
<em><span style="font-size: large;">I am cold to the bone.</span></em></div>
<div align="center">
<em><span style="font-size: large;">Need to warm this soul a bit.</span></em></div>
<div align="center">
<em><span style="font-size: large;">Just saying ...</span></em></div>
<div align="center">
<em><span style="font-size: large;"></span></em> </div>
<div align="center">
<em><span style="font-size: large;">~ JC ~</span></em></div>
JChttp://www.blogger.com/profile/13434534658681194289noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-4537574669836949367.post-12111773062689266462014-02-13T14:16:00.001-08:002014-02-13T14:16:20.121-08:00Today I Think Of Him<div align="center">
<em>~ ~ ~</em></div>
<div align="center">
<em>When I think of him,</em></div>
<div align="center">
<em>I remember the smile.</em></div>
<div align="center">
<em>Always a calmness to him.</em></div>
<div align="center">
<em>Never did he yell.</em></div>
<div align="center">
<em>I think he liked life too much.</em></div>
<div align="center">
<em>I didn't know him well.</em></div>
<div align="center">
<em>My memories have faded.</em></div>
<div align="center">
<em>I think of a few and smile.</em></div>
<div align="center">
<em>He made me do that.</em></div>
<div align="center">
<em>I miss him sometimes.</em></div>
<div align="center">
<em>Only in life we go</em></div>
<div align="center">
<em>along the way</em></div>
<div align="center">
<em>doing what needs to be done.</em></div>
<div align="center">
<em>He did the same.</em></div>
<div align="center">
<em>What needed to be.</em></div>
<div align="center">
<em>I haven't thought of him</em></div>
<div align="center">
<em>in a long time.</em></div>
<div align="center">
<em>It's been that long</em></div>
<div align="center">
<em>since he went away.</em></div>
<div align="center">
<em>I used to talk to him</em></div>
<div align="center">
<em>almost every day.</em></div>
<div align="center">
<em>Just for a moment.</em></div>
<div align="center">
<em>One day he was gone.</em></div>
<div align="center">
<em>I liked him a lot.</em></div>
<div align="center">
<em>He had a kind soul.</em></div>
<div align="center">
<em>He was a simple man.</em></div>
<div align="center">
<em>He was my Dad.</em></div>
<div align="center">
<em></em> </div>
<div align="center">
<em>~ JC ~</em></div>
<div align="center">
</div>
JChttp://www.blogger.com/profile/13434534658681194289noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-4537574669836949367.post-8585560683837644912014-01-16T15:04:00.003-08:002014-01-16T15:04:31.262-08:00Me<div align="center">
<em><span style="font-size: large;">One time a long ago,</span></em></div>
<div align="center">
<em><span style="font-size: large;">I decided to be me.</span></em></div>
<div align="center">
<em><span style="font-size: large;">Not someone else.</span></em></div>
<div align="center">
<em><span style="font-size: large;">Just the one I am.</span></em></div>
<div align="center">
<em><span style="font-size: large;">Had a grand time.</span></em></div>
<div align="center">
<em><span style="font-size: large;">Jumped and hopped</span></em></div>
<div align="center">
<em><span style="font-size: large;">to the tunes along.</span></em></div>
<div align="center">
<em><span style="font-size: large;">Turned and got lost.</span></em></div>
<div align="center">
<em><span style="font-size: large;">Lots of colors to look at.</span></em></div>
<div align="center">
<em><span style="font-size: large;">Been walking that path</span></em></div>
<div align="center">
<em><span style="font-size: large;">for a while.</span></em></div>
<div align="center">
<em><span style="font-size: large;">Looked up and</span></em></div>
<div align="center">
<em><span style="font-size: large;">saw the clouds.</span></em></div>
<div align="center">
<em><span style="font-size: large;">Where was that sun of mine ?</span></em></div>
<div align="center">
<em><span style="font-size: large;">It's me.</span></em></div>
<div align="center">
<em><span style="font-size: large;">The youth be gone.</span></em></div>
<div align="center">
<em><span style="font-size: large;">Old as the trees.</span></em></div>
<div align="center">
<em><span style="font-size: large;">Never drinking in</span></em></div>
<div align="center">
<em><span style="font-size: large;">the past that was.</span></em></div>
<div align="center">
<em><span style="font-size: large;">Always trying to be</span></em></div>
<div align="center">
<em><span style="font-size: large;">the me that I am.</span></em></div>
<div align="center">
<em><span style="font-size: large;"></span></em> </div>
<div align="center">
<em><span style="font-size: large;">~ JC ~</span></em></div>
JChttp://www.blogger.com/profile/13434534658681194289noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-4537574669836949367.post-592951898040334512014-01-12T15:02:00.002-08:002014-01-12T15:02:42.273-08:00Beginning<div align="center">
<em>It is the beginning.</em></div>
<div align="center">
<em>A wish for good.</em></div>
<div align="center">
<em>The goodbye to old.</em></div>
<div align="center">
<em>Nasty a bit this last year was.</em></div>
<div align="center">
<em>I found peace in a lot of things.</em></div>
<div align="center">
<em>The small quiet moments.</em></div>
<div align="center">
<em>A laugh at the oddness of my life.</em></div>
<div align="center">
<em>Who would ever think</em></div>
<div align="center">
<em>that it would be like this.</em></div>
<div align="center">
<em>Today, I clean.</em></div>
<div align="center">
<em>Put this and that away.</em></div>
<div align="center">
<em>A list to do.</em></div>
<div align="center">
<em>I think of the new.</em></div>
<div align="center">
<em>What will it be.</em></div>
<div align="center">
<em>The toll last year took on me.</em></div>
<div align="center">
<em>I am still worn out.</em></div>
<div align="center">
<em>I laugh about that too.</em></div>
<div align="center">
<em>I still have hope.</em></div>
<div align="center">
<em>It is what gets me through.</em></div>
<div align="center">
<em>To that and more.</em></div>
<div align="center">
<em></em> </div>
<div align="center">
<em>~ JC ~</em></div>
JChttp://www.blogger.com/profile/13434534658681194289noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-4537574669836949367.post-11325308637171481692013-12-16T09:33:00.002-08:002013-12-16T09:33:38.208-08:00Too Much <div align="center">
<em>~ ~ ~</em></div>
<div align="center">
<em>It's mid December.</em></div>
<div align="center">
<em>I survived my fifth surgery</em></div>
<div align="center">
<em>in less than two years.</em></div>
<div align="center">
<em>Eighteen months</em></div>
<div align="center">
<em>to be exact.</em></div>
<div align="center">
</div>
<div align="center">
<em>I am now stone free.</em></div>
<div align="center">
<em>My kidneys are good.</em></div>
<div align="center">
<em>My left is stable for now.</em></div>
<div align="center">
<em>May have to have it out</em></div>
<div align="center">
<em>at no notice</em></div>
<div align="center">
<em>but for now it is fine.</em></div>
<div align="center">
<em></em> </div>
<div align="center">
<em>I had both operated on.</em></div>
<div align="center">
<em>Since my kidneys love</em></div>
<div align="center">
<em>to make stones.</em></div>
<div align="center">
<em>The right is not damaged</em></div>
<div align="center">
<em>as of yet.</em></div>
<div align="center">
<em>I'll work on that. Not.</em></div>
<div align="center">
<em></em> </div>
<div align="center">
<em>My heart was fine</em></div>
<div align="center">
<em>during surgery.</em></div>
<div align="center">
<em>Which surprised everyone.</em></div>
<div align="center">
<em>Something went right for once.</em></div>
<div align="center">
</div>
<div align="center">
<em>I am home.</em></div>
<div align="center">
<em>Almost recovered.</em></div>
<div align="center">
<em>The surgery takes a toll</em></div>
<div align="center">
<em>on my old back.</em></div>
<div align="center">
<em>Ice packs have helped</em></div>
<div align="center">
<em>but it still goes out</em></div>
<div align="center">
<em>without notice.</em></div>
<div align="center">
<em>Annoying to say the least.</em></div>
<div align="center">
<em></em> </div>
<div align="center">
<em>May the Holiday now begin.</em></div>
<div align="center">
<em> Mentally I'm worn out</em></div>
<div align="center">
<em>but my spirit is still here.</em></div>
<div align="center">
<em>No more is what I ask.</em></div>
<div align="center">
<em>Give me some time to relax</em></div>
<div align="center">
<em>and enjoy a normal life.</em></div>
<div align="center">
<em></em> </div>
<div align="center">
<em>Is that too much to ask for ?</em></div>
<div align="center">
<em></em> </div>
<div align="center">
<em>~ JC ~</em></div>
JChttp://www.blogger.com/profile/13434534658681194289noreply@blogger.com1tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-4537574669836949367.post-55262123027430559212013-11-18T12:04:00.000-08:002013-11-18T12:04:11.130-08:00Warmth Needed<div align="center">
<em><span style="font-size: large;">I am in hibernate mode.</span></em></div>
<div align="center">
<em><span style="font-size: large;">This cooler weather has done me in.</span></em></div>
<div align="center">
<em><span style="font-size: large;">The rain has arrived.</span></em></div>
<div align="center">
<em><span style="font-size: large;">Not terrible but annoying.</span></em></div>
<div align="center">
<em><span style="font-size: large;">Still have a few leaves</span></em></div>
<div align="center">
<em><span style="font-size: large;">and the birds are still here.</span></em></div>
<div align="center">
<em><span style="font-size: large;">Without that entertainment</span></em></div>
<div align="center">
<em><span style="font-size: large;">I really don't know </span></em></div>
<div align="center">
<em><span style="font-size: large;">what I'd do.</span></em></div>
<div align="center">
<em><span style="font-size: large;">This being inside all the time</span></em></div>
<div align="center">
<em><span style="font-size: large;">is just not for me.</span></em></div>
<div align="center">
<em><span style="font-size: large;">I loved the past Spring and Summer.</span></em></div>
<div align="center">
<em><span style="font-size: large;">I was able to be outside </span></em></div>
<div align="center">
<em><span style="font-size: large;">most afternoons.</span></em></div>
<div align="center">
<em><span style="font-size: large;">Either reading or just enjoying</span></em></div>
<div align="center">
<em><span style="font-size: large;">the yard and it's surroundings.</span></em></div>
<div align="center">
<em><span style="font-size: large;"></span></em> </div>
<div align="center">
<em><span style="font-size: large;">I really need to move.</span></em></div>
<div align="center">
<em><span style="font-size: large;"></span></em> </div>
<div align="center">
<em><span style="font-size: large;">~ JC ~</span></em></div>
JChttp://www.blogger.com/profile/13434534658681194289noreply@blogger.com2tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-4537574669836949367.post-54076312949481084872013-11-02T07:53:00.002-07:002013-11-02T07:53:20.857-07:00Almost <em>~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ </em><br />
<em>It was bad news for me.</em><br />
<em>Nice man told me that it didn't work.</em><br />
<em>My fancy robotic surgery.</em><br />
<em>I've had two kidney surgeries.</em><br />
<em>Was told that I am worse instead of better or even stable.</em><br />
<em>Being schedule for surgery on my other kidney.</em><br />
<em>Have to repair that one too.</em><br />
<em>Was told that normally, we'd just leave those stones.</em><br />
<em>Not now. </em><br />
<em>We are in prepare to have one.</em><br />
<em>As in, table of one.</em><br />
<em>I'll take the kidney.</em><br />
<em></em><br />
<em>I'm in shock, I think.</em><br />
<em>Cried a bit but all that does is make my eyes look old </em><br />
<em>and worse than they were before.</em><br />
<em></em><br />
<em>Explains a lot though.</em><br />
<em>Pain wise.</em><br />
<em></em><br />
<em>No matter what I do, this old body of mine keeps thinking</em><br />
<em>of ways to get me.</em><br />
<em></em><br />
<em>I still plan on winning.</em><br />
<em>It's getting harder though.</em><br />
<em></em><br />
<em>I thought about it.</em><br />
<em>I'll give it one more try.</em><br />
<em></em><br />
<em>I am getting tired though.</em><br />
<em>Just want to give up.</em><br />
<em>I'm almost at that point.</em><br />
<em></em><br />
<em>~ JC ~</em>JChttp://www.blogger.com/profile/13434534658681194289noreply@blogger.com2tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-4537574669836949367.post-71339338081935020762013-10-29T15:38:00.001-07:002013-10-29T15:38:31.419-07:00Figure<em>Sitting pretty, I was until the thoughts kept coming to me.</em><br />
<em>Where and why.</em><br />
<em>I don't have those answers.</em><br />
<em>Never have and probably won't ever.</em><br />
<em>I've actually been quite happy going along my path.</em><br />
<em>Walking and looking at things I see.</em><br />
<em>Hearing the sounds of life along the way.</em><br />
<em>Never did it get to me that I was just doing.</em><br />
<em>Nothing special. Not me. </em><br />
<em>I'm a quite soul.</em><br />
<em>Recently, I have the need to be doing more.</em><br />
<em>I don't know what yet.</em><br />
<em>Whether it's a shift in location or being.</em><br />
<em>Time, it might be running on me.</em><br />
<em>Thus, the need to figure this out.</em><br />
<em></em><br />
<em>~ JC ~</em>JChttp://www.blogger.com/profile/13434534658681194289noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-4537574669836949367.post-31748963000890726532013-10-23T10:38:00.002-07:002013-10-23T10:38:28.098-07:00Just Saying<div style="text-align: center;">
<em>I have lost my ability to throw it all away and just dance.</em></div>
<div style="text-align: center;">
<em>I will look for it.</em></div>
<div style="text-align: center;">
<em>I will get it back.</em></div>
<div style="text-align: center;">
<em>Life does get to me sometimes.</em></div>
<div style="text-align: center;">
<em>I wish it didn't but it does.</em></div>
<div style="text-align: center;">
<em>I am not perfect. Not even close.</em></div>
<div style="text-align: center;">
<em>I sit here in my woods and I think.</em></div>
<div style="text-align: center;">
<em>Way too much.</em></div>
<div style="text-align: center;">
<em>About what was and what could have been.</em></div>
<div style="text-align: center;">
<em>The trail ahead of me is bumpy.</em></div>
<div style="text-align: center;">
<em>Too much so for a soft soul like me.</em></div>
<div style="text-align: center;">
<em>Only I keep going.</em></div>
<div style="text-align: center;">
<em>I always have.</em></div>
<div style="text-align: center;">
<em>I always will.</em></div>
<div style="text-align: center;">
<em>Only I'd like to dance along the way</em></div>
<div style="text-align: center;">
<em>and that I will find .. I will.</em></div>
<div style="text-align: center;">
<em>Maybe this afternoon.</em></div>
<div style="text-align: center;">
<em>I will remember that it is ok to be me.</em></div>
<div style="text-align: center;">
<em>I will be fine.</em></div>
<div style="text-align: center;">
<em>I won't cry every other minute.</em></div>
<div style="text-align: center;">
<em>It won't hurt to walk.</em></div>
<div style="text-align: center;">
<em>This is only temporary .. right.</em></div>
<div style="text-align: center;">
<em>The pain gets to me sometimes.</em></div>
<div style="text-align: center;">
<em>Only a bit cause I am used to it.</em></div>
<div style="text-align: center;">
<em>The heart that beats too fast </em></div>
<div style="text-align: center;">
<em>and makes me dizzy.</em></div>
<div style="text-align: center;">
<em>I will get that under control.</em></div>
<div style="text-align: center;">
<em>I will. I will. </em></div>
<div style="text-align: center;">
<em>The kidney that is not behaving.</em></div>
<div style="text-align: center;">
<em>Oh, let's just take that out.</em></div>
<div style="text-align: center;">
<em>Why not. </em></div>
<div style="text-align: center;">
<em>Like I said, sometimes it all gets to me.</em></div>
<div style="text-align: center;">
<em>All of it at the same time.</em></div>
<div style="text-align: center;">
<em>Today, yesterday, the day before that,</em></div>
<div style="text-align: center;">
<em>it took away my ability to dance.</em></div>
<div style="text-align: center;">
<em>Maybe today. I can be me again.</em></div>
<div style="text-align: center;">
<em>The world that I pretend in</em></div>
<div style="text-align: center;">
<em>will allow me to ...</em></div>
<div style="text-align: center;">
<em>Just saying over here in my woods.</em></div>
<div style="text-align: center;">
<em>Just saying that life is hard sometimes.</em></div>
<div style="text-align: center;">
<em>Just saying ...</em></div>
<div style="text-align: center;">
<em></em> </div>
<div style="text-align: center;">
<em>~ JC ~</em></div>
JChttp://www.blogger.com/profile/13434534658681194289noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-4537574669836949367.post-85969109384995004192013-10-22T08:25:00.001-07:002013-10-22T08:25:22.458-07:00Worn<div style="text-align: center;">
<em><span style="font-size: large;">~ ~ ~ </span></em></div>
<div style="text-align: center;">
<em><span style="font-size: large;">Think she said but I didn't know what she meant.</span></em></div>
<div style="text-align: center;">
<em><span style="font-size: large;">Oh to be that girl again.</span></em></div>
<div style="text-align: center;">
<em><span style="font-size: large;">Not knowing the roads of life.</span></em></div>
<div style="text-align: center;">
<em><span style="font-size: large;">Just wanting and doing.</span></em></div>
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<em><span style="font-size: large;">The years have worn their path on her.</span></em></div>
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<em><span style="font-size: large;">She walks the crowds and no one knows.</span></em></div>
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<em><span style="font-size: large;">The hope she once had.</span></em></div>
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<em><span style="font-size: large;">She does though.</span></em></div>
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<em><span style="font-size: large;">The memories of what she had</span></em></div>
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<em><span style="font-size: large;">and what she thought she had.</span></em></div>
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<em><span style="font-size: large;">People say that we get wiser with age.</span></em></div>
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<em><span style="font-size: large;">I think we just get worn out from trying.</span></em></div>
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<em><span style="font-size: large;"></span></em> </div>
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<em><span style="font-size: large;">~ JC ~</span></em></div>
JChttp://www.blogger.com/profile/13434534658681194289noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-4537574669836949367.post-91891673911337258112013-10-03T10:42:00.000-07:002013-10-03T10:42:16.382-07:00Hope<div style="text-align: center;">
<em>~ ~ ~</em></div>
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<em>I told myself that I was fine with it.</em></div>
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<em>Only I'm not.</em></div>
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<em>I try each day to go on.</em></div>
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<em>Like nothing is wrong.</em></div>
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<em>It is.</em></div>
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<em>I've stretched out a sentence</em></div>
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<em>into many years and more.</em></div>
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<em>I get tired some days.</em></div>
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<em>Like I am now.</em></div>
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<em>Maybe tomorrow will be better.</em></div>
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<em>That is my hope.</em></div>
JChttp://www.blogger.com/profile/13434534658681194289noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-4537574669836949367.post-31990856204704126572013-09-30T09:24:00.004-07:002013-09-30T09:24:50.419-07:00Knowing<div style="text-align: center;">
<i><span style="font-size: large;">~ ~ ~ </span></i></div>
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<i><span style="font-size: large;">The time has caught up with me.</span></i></div>
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<i><span style="font-size: large;">I try oh so hard to hide.</span></i></div>
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<i><span style="font-size: large;">Just when I feel like I've done it,</span></i></div>
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<i><span style="font-size: large;">I get reminded that I have not.</span></i></div>
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<i><span style="font-size: large;">I am in that mode now.</span></i></div>
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<i><span style="font-size: large;">A reminder that I am who I am.</span></i></div>
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<i><span style="font-size: large;">Not to run away.</span></i></div>
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<i><span style="font-size: large;">Nope, not this time.</span></i></div>
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<i><span style="font-size: large;">I will always be reminded.</span></i></div>
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<i><span style="font-size: large;">Time.</span></i></div>
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<i><span style="font-size: large;">It does not like me.</span></i></div>
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<i><span style="font-size: large;">Thus, I keep on going.</span></i></div>
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<i><span style="font-size: large;">Always living just in that moment.</span></i></div>
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<i><span style="font-size: large;">Knowing.</span></i></div>
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<i><span style="font-size: large;">Always knowing.</span></i></div>
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<i><span style="font-size: large;">~ JC ~</span></i></div>
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