Saturday, November 2, 2013


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It was bad news for me.
Nice man told me that it didn't work.
My fancy robotic surgery.
I've had two kidney surgeries.
Was told that I am worse instead of better or even stable.
Being schedule for surgery on my other kidney.
Have to repair that one too.
Was told that normally, we'd just leave those stones.
Not now.
We are in prepare to have one.
As in, table of one.
I'll take the kidney.

I'm in shock, I think.
Cried a bit but all that does is make my eyes look old
and worse than they were before.

Explains a lot though.
Pain wise.

No matter what I do, this old body of mine keeps thinking
of ways to get me.

I still plan on winning.
It's getting harder though.

I thought about it.
I'll give it one more try.

I am getting tired though.
Just want to give up.
I'm almost at that point.

~ JC ~


Judy said...

Can't find an en email address, so I will give it to you here - J. Reynolds, 35 Morton Drive, Kanata, Ontario, K2L 1W9

Naturegirl said...

No don't give up!
"Hope sees the invisible,feels the intangible and achieves the impossible"
A bit of depression has set in Janet. I am sure that you are on a tough road but know that I am praying for you. I pray that you can find inner peace and find happiness once again.
I send you healing energy! hugs