Don't Look Back

Someone whispered, what was that.

I kept on walking.

Thinking how odd that was.

Again, I hear it.

The crackling of the wind perhaps.

The song of the many birds in the woods.

Not really sure.

I go on with my day.

I hear it in the traffic of the many cars.

Just under the roar of the world.

Only, I still don't know what it is.

In my sleep, I dream of better times.

Youth and walking and being me.

The older lady dreams of what she loved.

The girl is in the woods.

Turns her head.

She hears something.

What is that ?

The older lady tells her it that darn clock.

Time is after you.

Go faster than you wanted.

Don't turn your head next time.

Time, it's always going to be there.

Making you turn.

Just don't look.

Keep walking.

Don't look back.

Tick, tick, tock.

 

~ JC ~

The Quiet

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The quiet is loud today.

I sit listening.

Hearing the birds and wind.

The trees sway to the sounds.

Me, I look and notice.

Always have enjoyed it.

The way life does it's rounds.

I live in the woods.

Surrounded by life.

I don't need talk

as much as I do a

mew or a chirp.

I take in what I hear.

What did I do with my day ?

I learned from the best.

Enjoyed what I saw.

Hope for more lessons.

Will come back.

I like my life too much.

Just Saying ...

~ JC ~

Thoughts On A Cloudy Friday

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Life is just crazy.
Sometimes.
Up and down.
Could I just get the medium for a while.
Just asking nicely here.

Been in a battle for over a year now.
When I think back, which I have been doing,
I have been kicking at it for a long long time.
It just became a massive battle within this last year.
I didn't even know I was fighting.
If I had, maybe I could have won.

Today, I am exhausted .. mentally and physically.
This body of mine just won't give me a break.
Just when I feel good, I wake to this.

I will, like I always have, keep going on.
Only I had told myself, this is it.
No more surgeries.
I'm done if this doesn't work.
And, it seems, that it may not have.

I will hopefully have a few days to relax.
Meds and pain pills with, of course.
I might just lose what's left of me this time.
How much can one take I ask.
I guess I will find out.

So, there you go.
On this sort of nice cloudy day.
How I wish.
Oh I do wish.

Just saying ...

~ JC ~

Not Easy Going Home

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A trip back home can make one think.

The youth and wonder.

Only when forced to remember,

do I think of her and what she wanted.

The dreams.

I did not do or end up like she thought.

Knowing more of the hurt of life,

I wish I could go back and whisper.

You will be fine.

Even if your dreams don't come true.

You will survive.

When you look in the mirror,

what you will see is the blue

of the eyes that used to want.

The grey of the hint of wonder.

I knew you well.

I liked what you needed.

The thoughtfulness of your dreams.

The world happened and you stepped

and lived what you didn't know.

No going back.

You did it well.

Head up.

Pretend that everything is fine.

No one will know.

It's a secret that you and I won't tell.

 

~ JC ~

Old Bricks

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Thinking that she should have bought a smaller size, she pulled at her new pants. Up they went as she walked. The old bricks made the path a bit bumpy for her. She looked around a bit noticing the old style of the houses. Some had been made into small businesses. A lawyer, a chiropractor and even a spa. Next to her was a bar with an odd name. She mentally tried saying it but lost her concentration when one of the bricks made her look down so she wouldn't fall. At the end of the street, was the destination. A small but very popular eatery. Another place that had been fixed up and made into a neighborhood restaurant. Looked nicer than she'd thought it would. As she waited for her table, she went outside to read the menu that was on the wall. A breeze blew at her and she thought she should have brought her jacket.  Was it too far to walk back to the car ? With that thought, she went back inside and was told by the rest of her party that they were next. No coat needed  after all.

 

~ JC ~

(a woman walks to a neighborhood restaurant

 with friends on an old brick sidewalk while thinking of other things.)