on the lake

The peace they bring me

The joy when I see them

The sounds when I hear them

I had to take photos of this family

Swimming on the lake

For a moment

It all seems so good

So right

Peace ...

Cards

Today I went shopping for two types of cards.

Birthday and Sympathy

The sympathy cards all say too much.

I just wanted a sort of nice photo and a slight saying inside.

Took forever to find one that I think isn't too much.

The birthday card was hard to find too.

Didn't want too funny or too sweet.

Ended up with one that I think is ok.

Makes you think.

Life should be enjoyed.

Cause like it's said,

you could be dead.

Just my thought for today ...

Perplexed ...

So here goes ...

I am over weight. Have been for several years.

Last year I lost twenty lbs. Felt so good about myself.

Around July of last year, it slowly started to come back.

Not that I did anything ... really. I just started to eat .. again.

I eat whole wheat pasta, whole wheat rice, whole wheat bread.

Fake all organic chips. Meat. Fish. Basically, organic foods.

Now, in my struggle to figure out .. what the h double l's .. is going on.

I have given up all pasta. I don't even know what chips look like.

I don't even stop by their row to admire from a far.

Chocolate ... what's that. I bought one slice of cake to share on my birthday.

We even did that for another family birthday.

I've eaten so many veggies .. I think that broccoli is the new four letter word.

I've looked on line. Maybe I have thyroid problems.

 Only everything says that most things don't work.

It seems that anything I put in my mouth .. lowfat fat or not ... makes me gain weight.

Do I exercise ? No, I do not.

Why ? After my coma, my right side is weak.

It sometimes likes to go a different direction than the rest of my old body.

I hope that this stops. The weight gain. I feel like a cherry ... plumb as can be.

I am in a good mood about all this. What else can I do ?

To gain weight when you're eating nothing fun is insane.

Go to a Dr ? No Way ... won't go to them anymore.

Dr's and I do not agree .. so, it's just me and figuring out what to do.

Just wanted to get it all out there ...

Been one of those frustrating months ...

Even diet dinners make me gain weight ...

I'm down to water ...

Not that I feel sorry for myself ...

I'm just perplexed to the max ...

in my woods

It's a cool Fall morning.

The sky is blue.

The birds are few.

Kind of sad.

I truely enjoy seeing them.

I like the tree outside my window.

My driveway and woods.

It brings me peace.

I need it. Peace.

My world has it's ups and it's downs.

I fight everyday.

I survive.

And, I look out my window each morning.

I am lucky to be here.

I know that.

I enjoy life.

I try to.

I hope I do it well.

Quietly in my woods.

in a ball ...

it's one of those days

where you just want

to crawl back in bed

and curl up in a ball

see i knew i was a cat

Thinking ...

And as I sit here

Contemplating the day

I wonder what I should be doing

versus what I want to do

Always thinking about that

Always have been

I'm a thinking

An observer of life

Of what goes on

And mostly of what does not

Today is a gorgeous sunny

Fall day

I must think of something that

you do in the sun and leave

the inside stuff for a rainy day

They are a coming

That is for sure

Too Busy ...

The end of Summer

The start of Fall

Leaves on the ground

Birds sing in the crispness

Blowers do the job

For those who are too busy

Going on their way

To get a pay

To work for the weekend

So they can listen to the birds

That sing about the Fall days

I memorized you in my heart ...

You knew me a while ago

I was younger

You were too

I think of you often

My mind wonders

Where you are ?

Are you happy ?

I was when we were together

Am I now ?

I had to be

You didn't give me a choice

Do you remember me ?

Would you know me in a crowd ?

I'd know you

I memorized you in my heart

Not me

I will not follow the rain

It stops me from looking

I need to be here

Just a bit longer

The sounds are true

The freshness will be

Someone else can

Not me

and wanted so much ...

I rode the bus to school

In my uniform of all things

It took what seemed like forever

I lived out of town

Had to take two buses to get to my school

While I road the bus

I would write

I would tell what I wanted to happen in my life

My life after this bus ride

The one where I had money and could do whatever I wanted

I was young and wanted so much

I was sixteen and dreaming

Soul

I write my soul down on paper.

The words mean more than can be expressed.

I want to be that person.

 The one that has a book at the store.

The one who walks by and sees that her book is on the 'recommend' shelf.

 I want to be a writer 

The soul wants to be read.

A New Beginning

This is My New Beginning ...

Where I will Write, Tell My Version of The Story, Rant, Yell, Test out my other blog, do all the things I can't do anywhere else ...