See It My Way

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Sit with me for a while.

See what I hear.

The reasons I think the way I do.

Always taking in the voices and views.

You'd have a great time.

Seeing thinks my way.

The world would open to you.

It's quiet but real.

The world that I hear.

 

~ JC ~

Do Over

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I cannot move the thrown wasted time.

No one knows how to do that.

I can only rewind the materials left behind.

I always wish that I could go back.

Make the different path appear.

Only even if I knew what I do know,

 I wouldn't be able to feel the new one.

Only I'd be wiser, I think.

This time around.

If only, I had that chance.

 

~ JC ~

Rainy Thoughts

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The thoughts I have are mixed.

Nothing seems the same.

Going forward is cloudy.

Rain pours from the blueless sky.

I look out the window and wonder.

Where did the dreams of my youth go ?

Did they blow away with the leaves ?

I sometimes remember who I was.

It hurts to do that.

I go on like I always have.

New dreams.

New life.

It's silly to think about the then.

The dreams I had that didn't happen.

The now that is.

Weather will do that.

Change and twirl.

Like my life and my past.

 

~ JC ~

 

Mood

I'm in one of those moods.
The melt into the walls kind.
The don't leave home without a reason kind.
The wait til you have to kind.
The no need to go kind.
The heal your soul kind.

Oh, I do what needs to be done.
Nothing else.

Why ?

I think I'm in a mini break down.
More like a break away.
From the things that I have no control over.

If I don't need to do something, I won't.
I need reasons.
I need thoughts.
If the thoughts don't match the reasons,
the answer will be no.

Just the mood I'm in lately.

~ JC ~

Strength

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There are times in a life where

you just have to stand up for yourself.

That is what I did recently

 even though it was a hard decision.

Some things and people like to run over or damage

 and then say sorry.

Nope, not this time.

I explained that this time sorry wasn't going to do.

I know that this person knew what they were doing

and did it anyway.

I didn't let them get away with it.

They are no longer in my life.

 

With that being said, I also am in take care of business mode.

I can no longer put up with things .. stuff ..

 craziness really that I don't want to.

Not like when I was younger and just did.

Put it under the rug so to speak.

Not anymore.

Clean up mode was what I was doing.

 

If I don't like something or someone,

I do not need them in my life.

 

Be it a service or a person.

 

Just the mode I am in right now.

 

I can do nothing about what happens to me

what is thrown at me or my loved ones

but I can do something about how I handle

these things and I am in fight mode and

from that I have become stronger.

 

Strength comes from within.

Cause physically I'm not strong at all.

It's all a mental thing and I'm getting good at it.

So, watch out Universe

cause if you are coming after me

you have a battle on your hands.

 

Just saying ...

 

~ JC ~