Shall We

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Who told you to do that?
Look over here at me.
During these wild months.
Blowing with me to the end.
I don't know my path.
It's been rather bumpy lately.
Never a smooth trail ahead.
Still, I make it through.
Always have.
Always will.
Like I said, if you're walking with me,
you're in for a wild adventure.
I don't bend to anyone.
I feel the beat of a tired heart.
I walk a bit slower.
Noticing the clouds and smaller things.
If you go the other way, with someone else,
you won't see the world I do.
It will be easier.
Mine is not.
It's never dull by my side.
You'll have a hell of a time,
while walking with me.
It's a world of unknowns.
The path I lead.
You didn't really want to know this.
You want to turn back.
I don't blame you.
I would if I could.
So, shall we go ?

~ JC ~

See It My Way

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Sit with me for a while.

See what I hear.

The reasons I think the way I do.

Always taking in the voices and views.

You'd have a great time.

Seeing thinks my way.

The world would open to you.

It's quiet but real.

The world that I hear.

 

~ JC ~

Do Over

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I cannot move the thrown wasted time.

No one knows how to do that.

I can only rewind the materials left behind.

I always wish that I could go back.

Make the different path appear.

Only even if I knew what I do know,

 I wouldn't be able to feel the new one.

Only I'd be wiser, I think.

This time around.

If only, I had that chance.

 

~ JC ~

Rainy Thoughts

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The thoughts I have are mixed.

Nothing seems the same.

Going forward is cloudy.

Rain pours from the blueless sky.

I look out the window and wonder.

Where did the dreams of my youth go ?

Did they blow away with the leaves ?

I sometimes remember who I was.

It hurts to do that.

I go on like I always have.

New dreams.

New life.

It's silly to think about the then.

The dreams I had that didn't happen.

The now that is.

Weather will do that.

Change and twirl.

Like my life and my past.

 

~ JC ~

 

Mood

I'm in one of those moods.
The melt into the walls kind.
The don't leave home without a reason kind.
The wait til you have to kind.
The no need to go kind.
The heal your soul kind.

Oh, I do what needs to be done.
Nothing else.

Why ?

I think I'm in a mini break down.
More like a break away.
From the things that I have no control over.

If I don't need to do something, I won't.
I need reasons.
I need thoughts.
If the thoughts don't match the reasons,
the answer will be no.

Just the mood I'm in lately.

~ JC ~