My Woods

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It's a quiet morning.
A few birds singing to my cats
but other than that, it's quiet.

Makes me think about my love of these woods.
My home is set down a long driveway.
Trees surround me on three sides.
It's like my own wooded area
set inside a sort of crowded neighborhood.

I find myself staying home a lot.
If I don't need to go out,
why leave this peace.

Even in the colder months,
this place is still a calm in the storm that is my life.
When it's warm, oh the woods come alive.
Not that they aren't always
but the movement is more noticeable.
Birds, butterfly's, owls, coyotes, deer.
They all make noise and visit my woods.

Only today, while it's quiet,
I think of the wonder of nature.
My love for it.
I have always enjoyed a walk or stroll,
as I have never walked fast.
Always stepping slowly while taking in
all the goodness that is around me.

If I could, I'd probably live in my woods
forever and only come out into the noise
when I absolutely had to.

Oh, that's what I do now.

Enjoy your quiet and peace
where ever you find it.

~ JC ~

Foggy Peace

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The cold has finally let up a bit.
It's been foggy though.
Deep and chilling.
The sun came out for a while.
Was really nice to see.
Still cold though.
Can only be out for a while.
With the fog, comes a ban on fires.
Thus, the heater vent is very popular with my cats.
The new heated floors are too.

I've found peace this week.
Which was so needed.
I feel so much better with it.
It's what I need.
It's what I have to have.

I can do nothing about the wildness
that is my life except to always
seek the peace in what surrounds me.

Like I've said before,
I will no longer allow those around
me who have issues or baggage
that I once put up with and now
I do not and will not.

Change it's a good thing.
At least this kind is.

~ JC ~

Edge Of My World

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It's early but it seems late.

I've been awake for hours.

Didn't really rest.

Thoughts keep crossing my path.

Yesterday, I went to do a simple thing.

Ended up to not be. Simple that is.

Nothing big in the world.

Just in mine.

A bother I didn't need.

So, today, I think.

What to do.

I have other things going on.

Like I usually do.

I pretend that my life is fine.

I keep the peace and quiet near.

The woods and beach keep me sane.

Without my pretending, I'd run wild.

Screaming and yelling and tearing.

Instead, I go into my pretend mode.

Only sometimes I get very reminded.

That my life is not what I'd like.

There is nothing I can do.

I watch the morning arrive.

Tell my cats that bird TV is almost on.

They sit with me in the dark.

Waiting.

By the way, today is pretty good.

I look at my calender.

I am reminded of an appointment.

The realness of my situation rattles my quiet.

I cannot pretend.

Serious talks go on.

Will my heart need surgery.

Will my heart make it through the two other surgeries I need.

Will my kidney let me have time.

All of these surgeries will make my back attack.

Things I now have to think about and schedule.

The end of my quiet.

The memories of what will follow.

That is if I make it through all of these things.

So, I pretend even as I can't.

 

~ JC ~

Al enjoying Peace

Happy New Year

I hope this year brings Peace

I wish for it

I hope for it

So many need it

Al found it this Holiday

(I got photo shop as a gift.

I'm in 'try new things' mode.)

My tree is finally done

I will now take the boxes upstairs

I do enjoy the lights

Shiny

Bright

They bring quiet

Peace to the

Normally loud

corner

My cat sat under the tree

All I saw was his tail

Outside the lights

are shining

My place is

Bright today

One of those days ...

There are times

When I don't get it

The meaning

The lesson to learn

Why things happen

What is the struggle for

Today is one of those days

Where you wonder

Why

I will continue on

I always do

It's just that I'm

Getting way to old

For this

In my life

I've had to give up

A lot

Let go of

A lot

Just let it be

Never mind

That didn't just happen

Only today

I think about

What could have been

What could be

I'm old

Today is not

What I thought it

Could be

I don't really

Want answers

I just want

Peace ...

on the lake

The peace they bring me

The joy when I see them

The sounds when I hear them

I had to take photos of this family

Swimming on the lake

For a moment

It all seems so good

So right

Peace ...