Just Life

~ ~ ~

Been a while since I've been here.

Lots went on.

Spring and Summer.

Warm.

My dog was worn out.

She died.

Very very sad times.

Most of that time was spent

helping her in the last days.

Next we recovered.

It took a mental toll

on everyone.

Not the cats but the humans

and my other dog.

We did decide to adopt.

A new puppy has 

kept me hopping.

Literally.

I'm almost sleeping

through the nights.

We're at that stage

of the new fur ball

in the house.

The normal that will be

is almost here.

The cats don't really care.

Not after that first week

where they were

what did Mom do 

this time.

Now, it's just oh

it's the short dog.

The Winter blahs

have arrived.

Rain, cold, snow, ice

and wind.

I do so enjoy the

warmer months.

I always have.

I always will.

That's the latest.

No big deals .. really.

Just life.

As it goes

over here.

~ JC ~

Sad

~ ~ ~

The past came to call.

Memories long past.

Some good.

Some not so much.

I had a decision to make.

Go or stay.

I went.

Very sad.

Hard to see.

I would never have wished this for them.

Ever.

Too much hurt along the way.

On their side.

Me, I just put up with it.

Until, I did not.

Been years.

Haven't seen or talked to them.

Very odd.

Didn't know if I wanted to go.

Didn't think I'd ever see them again.

Seems that I won't talk to them again.

Thought a lot.

Very odd.

What a shame that their life

ended up this way.

Could have been so different.

Didn't need to be this way.

Very sad.

I did cry when I saw them.

Now, I am just sad for them.

What a waste.

What could have been.

~ JC ~

( my older sister tried to commit suicide.

She is now in a coma.

I haven't talked to her in four years.

I haven't seen her in seven.

We were never friends.

She was just my older sister.

Not friendly.

There are moments though.

Few but there.

What a shame that she ended up this way.

She didn't call me.

She didn't think of me.

That's just like her.

Sad.

That's all I feel.

So sad that she ended up this way.)

Nice May Day

~ ~ ~

Yesterday, was a nice day.

Warm and not too windy.

Just right actually.

Later in the afternoon, it got a bit hot.

Off to the shade, I would go.

Did a bit of work in the yard.

Those weeds are terrible.

Everywhere they are.

I think it's the wind blowing them in

from someone else's yard.

Oh well, at least there is a nice view.

Was thinking that May was a good month.

Very relaxing, which I need.

I like pretending.

I like it very much.

~ JC ~

(I know it's June now but what a nice month May was)

Thinking

~ ~ ~ 

I have been thinking.

In the Spring, I'm able to be outside more.

The colors of nature have arrived.

I like this time of year.

Even in the confusion of my life,

if I can figure things out,

I have a joy to each day.

One part of my time

is very happy.

Can't complain about any of it.

The other part, is terrible.

I don't like to dwell

on that too much.

Only when it reminds me.

Each day I make a list.

What am I going to try to do.

I make the best of what happens.

Don't we all ?

I've had a lot happen.

Mentally it does get to me.

I'm not close to perfect.

Not at all.

Only I do win the prize,

if there is one, for trying.

I keep on going no matter what.

That's got to count for something.

Just saying ~

~ JC ~

Don't Get It

~ ~ ~

Some things in life I just don't like.

Mean people.

Things they say.

If they thought later,

why wouldn't they run back

to tell that person 

they had done wrong

that they had made a mistake.

Like they should have been

taught as a child.

Or, was I the only one

taught to be kind.

To think and rethink

about your life.

I still to this day

and I'm old as can be

do not understand why

this happens.

Eveyone makes mistakes.

Has a lousy moment or life.

To not get it though.

To not realize that you should

always want to do better.

To be kind and polite.

I want to sit them down.

To talk to them.

To make them get it.

Only I don't get to.

So, I will always be bothered

by people and what they do and say.

Maybe that's why I don't do much

with them. 

People.

Only so much harsh words are 

aloud in my life.

I've had my quota.

No more.

~ JC ~