Monday, September 30, 2013


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The time has caught up with me.
I try oh so hard to hide.
Just when I feel like I've done it,
I get reminded that I have not.
I am in that mode now.
A reminder that I am who I am.
Not to run away.
Nope, not this time.
I will always be reminded.
It does not like me.
Thus, I keep on going.
Always living just in that moment.
Always knowing.
~ JC ~

Saturday, September 21, 2013

Fresh Air

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I sit and wonder.
The new start of it.
The journey I have walked.
Stumbling along the way.
Fresh to breathe but so sore.
The air is different here.
I do enjoy the time to think.
What did I do that brought me here ?
~ JC

Tuesday, September 17, 2013

At Some Point

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There are things that happen
and you just can't do anything about them.
You think and decide to let it be.
Talking about it would make it worse.
Not accomplish or fix anything.
At some point, I gave up.
Did all I could but still it was my fault.
I am worn out.
I care but I can't give anymore.
I wish the best.
May the world be good.
Only I can't be there.
May the stories I told be enough.
The battles be fair.
The angles be known.
I cannot do or be anymore.
I'm tired.
I wish things had been different
but personalities and wills were not.
I can't be blamed for everything.
I can walk away now.
Sad that it is this way.
At some point the blame must
be seen for what it really is.
~ JC ~

Tuesday, September 10, 2013

Thinking Out Loud

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I still do not understand the anger within some people.
Life is hard. It hurts. Why take it out on others ?
Some situations are not easy to care for.
I think things through.
Always trying to be kind.
It just who I am.
Only I do have a point where I want to explain.
Give my life advice on how to handle things.
The why are they doing and acting the way they are.
Only some people just are mean.
Must have been their childhood.
Only I didn't have the best either.
At some point you have to grow up.
You must be responsible for your actions and words.
I am.
Some aren't.
I have a neighbor who took something very simply
and turned it into a huge deal.
Being so rude and I was still trying to be nice.
Only now I would love to write her a note
telling her to be nice to others.
I do believe she was a bully in school.
No other explanation fits.
She was and will always be one of those people.
I simply asked who's cat was coming into my yard
and if they could please put a collar
with a bell on it as it was killing
the birds in my yard.
Yep, terrible of me wasn't it.
All hell broke out and she wrote me
terrible paragraphs.
One of those people where you
think do I need to worry.
So, I finally sent all of these notes she'd sent to
the homeowners association board website
so all could see what she'd been saying.
Silence from her.
Was she drinking at the time.
Who knows but like I said,
everyone has something going on in their lives
and you need to put that on the shelf
and deal with each item 
on it's own.
In a polite adult manner.
Some people never will.
Just saying ...

Never dull over here in my woods.

I now have a bird sound deterrent thingy
coming in the mail.
Supposed to make the cat go away.

Oh, and this person lets her cat out
when she knows we have coyotes.
That's the reason she won't put a bell
on her cat. It might attack them.
Seriously, indoor only like mine are.
This is what I'm dealing with.
And, it just went on from there.
Her new name, to me, is crazy lady who lives across the street.

~ JC ~

Tuesday, September 3, 2013


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Silence after the noise
Quiet is the sky
No sounds coming
Freshness of the new
Someone took the sounds
filtered them
Turned the loud into soft
Listening is easy now
~ JC ~